AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

People make me want to scream sometimes.

Does it make me pathetic?

So, I've spent the last 5-6 hours crying on and off. And I don't care if I'm pathetic because I'm crying over a dog. It's not fair that we lost another dog, and after 4 years, I tend to be a little attached to my animals. I lost Onyx because of a stupid blood clot. This sucks, and it isn't fair.

To sum up the day, it sucked.

How was your day? Hopefully better than mine.

This makes me think.

This picture makes me smile, but it also makes me think.

I kind of knew all of these girls in previous years, but with the exception of Gina, I was never really close with any of them until this year. It just amazes me how fast we make friends, and how fast we can lose them. Asia is one of my best friends now, and I didn't even really know her last year. And the girl I thought of my best friend for most of 8th grade, I don't even really talk to her at all anymore.

And then there are circumstances like with Amber.

We went through a very long period of time where we didn't speak at all. But we weren't mad at each other. It's super weird, because we can still talk to each other like we always have. It's wonderful. And I'm glad to call that silly girl one of my best friends.

I've been thinking about who my real best friends are lately. And I think I've figured out the ones that get that title.

-Amber Stetler

-Caty Atterberry

-Asia Mackey

-Ellen Gulliver

These girls are the only ones I can truely talk about anything with, and they mean the world to me. And I hope that they all realize that.

I Just Found Out,

That my sister is pregnant again.

She had Clarice last August, and she just found out that she's pregnant again. She's happy, but I can't help but wonder what she thought her future would be when she was my age. I don't think she would have ever pictured this.

But that's okay. Life is full of possibilities, and it can take you down any track at any moment. You might have your sights set on a specific goal, but the choices you make always decides where you actually go.

Summer 2009.

What I've been waiting for. I've been itching to be out of school since October. And now that we are, I've realized yet again that summer is just a period of time between seeing my friends every day. It's been 2 days since we were released, and I already miss seeing them every day.

Do my friends see summer the way I do? I don't know.

I don't like school, true, but I hate not seeing my friends. I'm going to have to make major plans this summer. Especially with Amber and Ellen. And then there is Chels and Britt. And Caty. :)

This is going to be an INSANE summer. I have a lot to do. Church Camp at the end of July. Iowa State Fair in August. Plus softball tourney's on the weekends in between.